it's just a part of life.

上网, 忽然看到某人以前的部落格.
她样子的变化真的很大.
没有人会理会过去.

但愿我可以和她一样漂亮
不过这一切只是一场梦
我不可能会有那样的一天
漂亮二字仍然离我很远
天空的灰色往往都比不上心灰

我真的很喜欢比较
明知道那样会让自己不开心
偏偏它以成了我的习惯

我不知道我还能抑制自己多久
喜欢我能快点从梦境中苏醒 :)

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微笑像谎言一样

是最起码的假装

眼泪只能躲藏

:')

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这就是可爱的它.　

 睡觉吧! :)


它弄到我皮肤敏感,也弄到我很开心.
真的没有后悔 x)

truth never lies.

常常告诉自己. 不要在意你说过什么.
不是失败而是不能忍受.

人的容忍是有限度的.
不管你说我小气还是怎样.
我不会在意.

我想说.
不是你想怎样就可以怎样.
你可以做的东西不代表别人不可以做.
你有权力, 别人一样有.
地球不会绕着你转.

你会生气不代表别人不会.
或许你并不把它当成一回事.
但是, 在你把话说出来之前请用你的大脑考虑别人的感受.

或许你不会在意,
重伤别人之后还可以若无其事的跟别人讲话.

或许我真的不适合做你的朋友.
你没有问题. 是我小气!

讨厌

曾几何时,

连你也变得如此.

我不想说并不代表

这一切一切没有发生过.

想说.

我不会再为这些事情哭泣

也不会为这些事情后悔

不想逃避

只好坚强去面对

说好的

不会哭

extra.

我发现到原来我是多余的　

meaningless.

that is not my fault :(

day of gathering!

yooo!

this is what bai bai like to do on my face! -.-

jia wen! :D she told me many things on that dayyy <3

yee shuen! :')

* yipeee! :) the result :D

* braces of mine! 

* 4 person!

* heyy yaa! 

daa cute one! :D

* weeeeeeeeeeeeeee~ 

* i love this much! 

* ber ber! x)

* pehshuwen! :)

bye bye! :D 

thanks to sakai ber ber!

with much sakai's love! :)

insane with sakaisss ♥

* new braces po look :)

had lots of fun with sakaiss.
and weird samseng jia qing -.-

play lot of sports today. muahahaha. its fun fun fun! :D i am sure there will be a day just like today again :)

just feel like wanna update my dusty bloggie

说真

钢管舞我真的无能为力．　

 我尽量　-.-

面具.

开始厌倦,

也无法在茫茫中找回自己

以前,

累了-休息-继续.

现在.

累了-休息-休息

从前那喜欢奋斗的

从前那喜欢挑战的

从前那拥有理想的

我    消失了

那脸上挂着的笑容是虚伪

没人能理解

隐藏在笑容里的忧愁

有时

笑着并不代表开心

笑

只是悲伤的面具

只要凝视别人眼眸的深处

你会发现那藏着

好多好多的秘密

其实

我对自己今天的表现感到很失望

就连简单的动作都做不好

原来

是我没够资格.

或许

一直以来都在高估自己

Someday I'll be big enough so you can't hit me :)

*egg head with a huge hand :)

roar, it's exam again. i can sure i will fail for the physics test! -.- owhh myyy, how can it be like this. it hurts! i dunwan physics be the only subject i fail everytime. why are you exist?! *physics. i hate you much! but sometimes i do like you :) depends :D the mid year exam is in the progress, i am still here for blogging and publish it with much lovesssssssssssssssssssssssssss <3 heh~ gonna off soon and study for chemis. chemistry= CHEMIS +TRY. -.- that is the way how teach ask us not to give up it. hohohohoho~ i will try for it! someone told me just now, -try your best in every exam even you hate the subject or always get low grades for it. after each paper, NOT to compare your answer with your friend because it will affect your next paper! LISTEN, no matter how worst the previous paper were, prepare for the next paper as perfect as you can (:

-gah yaw- 

 -DON'T EVER LOOK BACK-

始终.

她不理解他.
他也不理解她.
原来,
他们还在原地踏步.
始终,
没改变 .

压力 :D

-my hair! *screw you. :X

i am getting lazy and lazier.

my result is getting worse and worst.

horrible result in a horrible report card :(

roarr! why everyone is getting pro and pro?! -.-

just like everyone are moving and i am just stop at the same place.

i need a talk (:

chi da bian! 

almost exam everyday in this week. 

the time flies swiftly when i am typing these words :D

-actually there's some regret for choosing science stream.

it's really chi da bian =(

i dunno what kind of marks will appear on my report card.

10? 20?30?40?50? maybe 60?

anyway, jia you everyone!  :)

owhh myyy JUNK FOOD! =X

let seee, FRIDAY =(

the time pass swiftly. *owh i hate! 

but seems like my mouth not going to recover - -

ewwwwwww, swollen for few dayssss!

TOP 10, chang kun shui!

i am really scare of you =(

you make me scare for a week.

i am really regret to make the choice.

- pull out my teeth! 

i cant eat any hard things at all. 囧

O.M.G 0.0

*look at my terrible face =X

baba- nampak? xD

fever before my face swollen.

horrible holiday. hahaha.

going to do finish my homework!!

feels fly (:

insane.

* yam xiu please =')

from the standardized test i found that my physics is actually poor.

i don't even pass it. desperate again and again. 

i doesn't mean to blame any teacher, i felt sorry for mr. chang kun shui. - -

i think i cant escape from the fate of TOP 10 that set by mr chang. 

although, i hate to be punished yet, i failed to jump out from TOP 10. =(

i hate myself being careless always. i hate myself being stupid always.

i hate myself being foolish always. i hate myself being lazy always.

in this standardized test i didnt think about to give up any subject.

yet, i failed some of them.

it's hurt! being careless is just a excuse for myself.

being foolish is just a crazy way for telling myself not to be desperate.

i feel stressful sometimes, i complaint myself for many many times.

sometimes, i really think to escape from my school life just not to face those exam and my sucks result.

i failed in my first test, the feel is horrible. 

i dunwan to be the last in my class.

keep telling myself not to be careless again and again. 

hope i will be fine soon.

i need you! :D

* fat hao!! xD

EXAM! 

exam! tadaaaaaa! *

i dont even touch a book - -

gratz me :(

aiksss, school life.

i wondering why i MUST  be talking ni the class.

the right!

i cant control my tongue .__.

and you YOU you,

i really didnt mean to ... just now.

fine, thats all :)

原来,

我需要一位聆听者.

振作.

 

今天别人上课我读书 :D
老师们别伤心.

堕落人生请结束.
辉煌的开始就是堕落的结束:)
我真的很想知道.

我要读书了!

如果再不读书

我无法想象接下来的日子应该怎么过 :(

我的成绩单也会出现刺眼的数字.

可是我不会勉强你,

请不要引诱我了

我是不会被你影响的! 

x)

如果你并不想告诉我.

hold my hand.

she hates me at once.
i did not know what had happened.
as usual, i talked to her.
i did not find out she hates me.

she told me.

but she never tell about the reason.

i am wondering what makes her become this.

i dont mean to blame anyone.

maybe it's really my fault.

i done it.

its my fault.

am i correct? 

indeed.

_________________________________

you will never knows,

because you are not the person who feel this.

it's hurt.

:(

i hate that feel, being lonely.

i hate the person, destroy my friendship.

i hate you, because you hurt me deeply.

i am starting to hate everything in my life.

it's quiet sad, if you get this feel =O

the reason.

I'm not a perfect person,
There's many things I wish I didn't do,
But I continue learning,
I never meant to do those things to you,
And so I have to say before I go,
That I just want you to know.

I've found a reason for me,
To change who I used to be,
A reason to start over new,
And the reason is you.

I'm sorry that I hurt you,
It's something I must live with every day,
And all the pain I put you through,
I wish that I could take it all away,
And be the one who catches all your tears,
That's why I need you to hear.

I've found a reason to show,
A side of me you didn't know,
A reason for all that I do,
And the reason is you .

it's similar :$

原来.

是成熟的时候了.

在过去的三年里,

要求别人纵容,

要求别人顺从.

原来并没有真正的理解别人的感受.

或许哪天他们都渐渐离去.

在那瞬间,

开始慌了.

开始明白别人的厌恶.

DInNeR :D

toilet boleh! :D

 

bilik kakak boleh! :D

exam exam exam. study study study.

that's ma life :(

sometimes really bored of these things, 

but i can only do these D:

你说我不给予尊重,

我只想给予私人空间.

你说我没礼貌,

我只是不想打扰.

在你眼里根本就没有我,

因为我不能为你争光.

对不起,我的错.

=(

you make me simle; you make me cry.

you make me smile like the sun,

 fall out the bed,

sing like a bird, dizzy in my head;

- just thought of you can drive me wild.

you will never know how the feel was :(

bom bom pow :D

VS

OMG! a week passed.

what had i done? 

play,sleep,watch tv.

thats all D:

 i dont even touch my hmwk leaaa =(

sorry teachers, i make both of you disappointed again and again ><

BUT,

at least i finished half of my nerd job :)

happy cny to all my friends,

happy rabbit year to all my friends.

smile always will make a better day :)

无奈.

是否,

漂亮的人

就得到更多的关心

就得到更多的安慰

就得到更多的注意

就得到更多的喜欢

就得到更多的朋友

就得到更多的疼爱

就得到更多的祝贺

就得到更多的鼓励

反之,

丑陋的人

就得不到关心

就得不到安慰

就得不到关注

就得不到喜欢

就得不到朋友

就得不到疼爱

就得不到祝贺

就得不到鼓励

再说,

普通的人

就得到敷衍的关心

就得到敷衍的安慰

就得到敷衍的关注

就得到敷衍的喜欢

就得到敷衍的朋友

就得到敷衍的疼爱

 就得到敷衍的祝贺

就得到敷衍的鼓励

若漂亮的人受挫折

若丑陋的人受挫折

若普通的人受挫折

三者得到的待遇都不同.

在这社会人们都不会做对自己没有利益的事情.

就如帮助人也一样, 人们都会选择帮助漂亮的人.

所以,

漂亮的人往往都有优先权.

如今,

我也不再指望朋友的安慰和鼓励.

越是指望,伤得越深.

我也不再高估自己.

我告诉过自己要学会独立.

虽然我嫉妒,

但我不能怪自己的样子.

只怪社会的现实.

凌乱,

回忆,记忆.

想象,体恤.

梦境,现实.

我选择.

放弃.

rabbit likes to eat carrot? x)

last yearrr :) blur dao pi gu jiang @@

maths, you are my best friend forever :D

bm, you are my enemy forever :(

bio, i love you forever

hahahahahahhaha! sot diao liao. 

exam is coming, STUDY life is back :(

i hate study actually, but as a nerd! i must love to study :)

lazy worm is around me noww! it keep confusing me @@

the angel says study please but the worm says go rest please ><

woaahh, delay my homework for a long time

and tell myself  i will finish soon! x)

till the last, i will finish it at school :)

sounds stupid TT

everyone is hardworking this year, both of them now that this year isn't a HONEY MOON YEAR.

they stop themselves not to copy homework. 

but, i just keep copying :(

rescue me please :)

a day without you is like a year without rain.

* sampat! -.-

i am really worry about my result. what marks i will get =(

starts to feel like hard to catch up ><

hmm, i can stay over this year, i trust :)

exam life is returned, i should change my mood back to study mode .

bye. x)

过分.

今天

以往如常

不同的是

我

遇上不平凡的事情

懦弱的自己

无法承受这一切

我无法忘记那种感觉

恐怖的感觉

仿佛迷失了自己

从今以后

我不会再是我

我将改变一切

因为今天所发生的一切

请你离开我的世界

我不认识你

你也不认识我

我们互不相识

从前玩得多么开心

如今都化为乌有

不要问我发生什么事

今天发生的将会是我最不想提起的事.

you smile, i smile :)

*hair hair hair TT

heh, school reopen for a week :)

hmm, i still can handle most of them :DDDDDDD

so happyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy ><

sot diao liao

actually i got nothing to write,

i write this post just for update my bolggie. xDD

4s AI  :D

funny crazy class,

cant stop laughing :D

baby, you wont ever work for nothing :)

2011? 2010? x)

*white lahhh :D

vivit, buhbyee 2010 :)

halooooooooooo, 2011, 4s ai. x)

aikss, next year will as usual, school.society.tuition.piano.dance.exam? lagi lagi? -.-

aiyooooooooooo, boring lehh :(

same class with many known people

i think i cant concentrate during class ><

next year, i must be a NERD! 

famous than starbucks d NERD -.-

wearing a big old spec and short short hair.

bring along the book wherever i go :)

looks good :D

ehh, first day need to bring big bag to bring books :)

remember please x)

好与坏只是一线之差

喜欢与讨厌只是一念之差

爱与被爱却是天壤之差

:)